last post here. new blog.
Monday, September 12, 2005
so over him.
so over it.
so over this.
im moving 4 real. this is my last post here.
add me up at my new blog : http://i-love-sporks.blogspot.com
time to pack up again and move,
wham, bam, thank u ma'am,
marly
marlykilled the world @ 4:49 PM |
Sunday, September 11, 2005
its hard.
Marlene, u brilliant brilliant fool.
mucking things up again with your words
and rash assumptions.
no it was absolutely impossible 4 him 2 really like me
cos he was a guy
and he didnt noe me
god y am i such an idiot sumtimes?
and now everything is gone
i totally threw the friendship away
and i spat on it
and i dug my own grave
and he probably cant even stand the sight of me now
he probably thinks im a lil itty bitty whore
he probably hates me
i cant blame him
cos id hate me too if i were him!
why do i feel so shit?
why do i actually care about what hes feeling?
why cant i just not care?
god y am i so afraid he'll never talk 2 me again?
y am i so dependant on him?
y am i so weak and measely and pathetic that it just scares me tt he'll never think of me the same way and that he really meant it when he said its over and he didnt give a shit abt me. y did my heart just skip a beat and y did i wanna cry like a little stupid little girl?
god more mess.
more confusion.
more destruction by me.
y couldnt i just tell him tt i kinda liked him too
y couldnt i just put my self aside and tell him tt i think abt him alot too.
god i hate myself so much right now
i cant even look at myself or think abt myself
i just cant.
i just want him 2 come online again and talk 2 me and let everything just go back 2 how it was before i opened up my big mouth and before i took 4 granted tt he actually cared abt me.
ugh. ugh ugh. marlene u deserve more than a mental head slap 4 this one.
i deserve the whole abusive enchilada.
its hard 2 b anorexic when ur a pig,
its hard 2 b a girl when ur me,
marly
marlykilled the world @ 8:19 PM |
pics frm today
marlykilled the world @ 12:49 AM |
kinky ronald mcdonald
went out with riane, kirstin, hari and niki today
had such a blast
we made out with ronald mcdonald! except kirstin lol
such a sexy beast he is!
lol and they taught me how 2 spit.
so awesome lol
we spent the entire day in laughing fits and spazs.
so many pics. all on my webshots. u guys go have a lk, my username is marloosh.
we tried on sum funky hats. oh the kink!
marlykilled the world @ 12:41 AM |
Saturday, September 10, 2005
take my quiz and see how well u noe me.
http://www.bebo.com/inviteq/2593404a551139498b
marlykilled the world @ 12:01 PM |
Friday, September 09, 2005
WHHHHEEEEEEEEEEE!
so over yesterday
yesterday was a girly day
its still confusing
but im happy
got kicked in the ankle during rugby
not very funny considering my ankle is pink. and swollen.
got dinner 2nite with godma eliza and john.
ugh ugh ugh.
boringness
my ear smells pretty so im told.
stupid swedish whores,
marly
marlykilled the world @ 6:01 PM |
childhood games
Thursday, September 08, 2005
What on earth am i supposed 2 do with ur sad lil puppy dog looks?
what do u want 2 me 2 do?
im so sick of em
im so sick of tryin 2 comprehend y ur looking at me in class when i noe u dont want me anymore.
ugh im so tired of this lil sick twisted mary go round.
i got off a long time ago
sumtimes i even wonder if was ever on it
or maybe u were jus riding it alone?
yet with all ur lil misleading looks which r so often interpreted as "i miss u" im sucked in
and i just want out.
i have so much more calling 4 me
but im stuck and i hate stuck
stuck is just as obscene as normal or average or what we were.
i just wanna make u disappear
i wanna bake u in an oven with betty crocker icing and send u 2 iraq or sumwhere with starving kids.
god im so delusional
im such a mess
i annoy me
i cant imagine how many more ppl i annoy if i cant even stand me.
stop apoligizing, i hope u choke and die.
marlykilled the world @ 6:31 PM |
lists
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
im doing what i hate most
im gonna make a list
10 things ive thought abt in the last 5 mins:
1)josh
2)josh's list
3)calorie intake
4)hott danish boy i noe... hehehe
5)ron's wood
6)playhouse disney
7)"him" (gah i dont like thinking abt him)
8)josh's list (no this aint anything kinky its really a list)
9)toast
10)josh (i talk 2 him 2 much)
11 songs i like:
1)bloody valentine by gc
2)criminal by fiona apple
3)only hope - mandy moore (its 4 my girly moments)
4)son of a preacher man - janis joplin
5)leaving on a jet plane - john denver
6)Will you still love me tomorrow - plain white t's
7)helena - my chemical romance
8)hey there delilah - plain white t's
9)bleed like me - garbage
10) untitled - simple plan
11) wake me up when september ends - greenday
9 things people have said that stuck with me:
1) so i have you for the whole night then?
2) i love u.
3) i cant get u outta my head (it was more of the way he said it and the intense lk in his eyes)
4) im canadian
5) one day u'll wake up and realize u have nuthing 2 depend on but ur looks
6) i would have never done that to you
7) y are you doing this 2 urself? im worried abt u
8) just tell her that u miss her.
9) you are so fat.
8 things i say 2 myself everyday:
1)fat!!!
2)doh?!
3)god that was embarassing.
4)food is evil.. food is bad.
5)i wonder what hes thinking abt?
6)ooooo!!!
7)i wonder how many calories this burns?
8)stupid ho.
7 things i find very amusing:
1)sorhan (my danish boy)
2)josh
3)playhouse disney
4)dora the explorer
5)frau mayzerack's poofy hair
6)niki's obsessions
7)the size of my wrists
6 things i do when i wake up:
1)weigh myself
2)shower
3)figure out how 2 match my underwear
4)brush my teeth
5)hope to god my day doesnt suck
6)jump arnd in circles
5 people i depend on:
1)lubna
2)kirstin
3)hari
4)sofia
5)serena
4 things i say very often:
1)whatever floats ur boat
2)guten aloha/guten hello/guten bonjourno/olah
3)blob
4)gahhh
3 men i find irresistable:
1)JOHNNY DEPP
2)collin farrell
3)chad micheal murray
2 bad habits i have:
1)i never stop fidgetting
2)i never stop smiling especially when i feel awkward which makes me pretty damn fake
1 thing that means the most to me:
1)my lil secrets.
marlykilled the world @ 8:49 PM |
life is a nightmare
laughing doesnt really help
but it makes ppl believe.
believe what they want 2 believe.
im so normal.
hate that word.
its obscene 2 use the word normal or average
i hate the word whatever too.
dancing my ass off.
skipping down the drive.
glee.
i like u like i like the quiggles,
marly
dont question playhouse disney dammit!
marlykilled the world @ 8:22 PM |
obsesssion seeps in
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
checked my BMI today.
Underweight = <18.5
Normal weight = 18.5-24.9
Overweight = 25-29.9
Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater
my BMI is 18.3... im so close 2 being normal. i hate the word normal...ack!
instensity is an aprhodisiac.
his eyes r intense
his stares r intense
i dont like him very much
i dont like dora the explorer very much either.
winkle,tinkle, tinky right niki?
ive been jumping in circles
my heart is throbbing
my cheeks are flushed
im sweaty
and im empty
and i can hear my own pulse in my ears
and im shaking
i love this
im giddy again
i get so sad sometimes
and he makes me laugh
its so wrong tt im obsessed with so many ppl at once.
im better off everyday
when im standing in the pouring rain
i dont mind
marlykilled the world @ 4:28 PM |
last post here. new blog.
Monday, September 12, 2005
so over him.
so over it.
so over this.
im moving 4 real. this is my last post here.
add me up at my new blog : http://i-love-sporks.blogspot.com
time to pack up again and move,
wham, bam, thank u ma'am,
marly
Marlenescrewed the world over @ 4:49 PM |
Sunday, September 11, 2005
its hard.
Marlene, u brilliant brilliant fool.
mucking things up again with your words
and rash assumptions.
no it was absolutely impossible 4 him 2 really like me
cos he was a guy
and he didnt noe me
god y am i such an idiot sumtimes?
and now everything is gone
i totally threw the friendship away
and i spat on it
and i dug my own grave
and he probably cant even stand the sight of me now
he probably thinks im a lil itty bitty whore
he probably hates me
i cant blame him
cos id hate me too if i were him!
why do i feel so shit?
why do i actually care about what hes feeling?
why cant i just not care?
god y am i so afraid he'll never talk 2 me again?
y am i so dependant on him?
y am i so weak and measely and pathetic that it just scares me tt he'll never think of me the same way and that he really meant it when he said its over and he didnt give a shit abt me. y did my heart just skip a beat and y did i wanna cry like a little stupid little girl?
god more mess.
more confusion.
more destruction by me.
y couldnt i just tell him tt i kinda liked him too
y couldnt i just put my self aside and tell him tt i think abt him alot too.
god i hate myself so much right now
i cant even look at myself or think abt myself
i just cant.
i just want him 2 come online again and talk 2 me and let everything just go back 2 how it was before i opened up my big mouth and before i took 4 granted tt he actually cared abt me.
ugh. ugh ugh. marlene u deserve more than a mental head slap 4 this one.
i deserve the whole abusive enchilada.
its hard 2 b anorexic when ur a pig,
its hard 2 b a girl when ur me,
marly
Marlenescrewed the world over @ 8:19 PM |
pics frm today
Marlenescrewed the world over @ 12:49 AM |
kinky ronald mcdonald
went out with riane, kirstin, hari and niki today
had such a blast
we made out with ronald mcdonald! except kirstin lol
such a sexy beast he is!
lol and they taught me how 2 spit.
so awesome lol
we spent the entire day in laughing fits and spazs.
so many pics. all on my webshots. u guys go have a lk, my username is marloosh.
we tried on sum funky hats. oh the kink!
Marlenescrewed the world over @ 12:41 AM |
Saturday, September 10, 2005
take my quiz and see how well u noe me.
http://www.bebo.com/inviteq/2593404a551139498b
Marlenescrewed the world over @ 12:01 PM |
Friday, September 09, 2005
WHHHHEEEEEEEEEEE!
so over yesterday
yesterday was a girly day
its still confusing
but im happy
got kicked in the ankle during rugby
not very funny considering my ankle is pink. and swollen.
got dinner 2nite with godma eliza and john.
ugh ugh ugh.
boringness
my ear smells pretty so im told.
stupid swedish whores,
marly
Marlenescrewed the world over @ 6:01 PM |
childhood games
Thursday, September 08, 2005
What on earth am i supposed 2 do with ur sad lil puppy dog looks?
what do u want 2 me 2 do?
im so sick of em
im so sick of tryin 2 comprehend y ur looking at me in class when i noe u dont want me anymore.
ugh im so tired of this lil sick twisted mary go round.
i got off a long time ago
sumtimes i even wonder if was ever on it
or maybe u were jus riding it alone?
yet with all ur lil misleading looks which r so often interpreted as "i miss u" im sucked in
and i just want out.
i have so much more calling 4 me
but im stuck and i hate stuck
stuck is just as obscene as normal or average or what we were.
i just wanna make u disappear
i wanna bake u in an oven with betty crocker icing and send u 2 iraq or sumwhere with starving kids.
god im so delusional
im such a mess
i annoy me
i cant imagine how many more ppl i annoy if i cant even stand me.
stop apoligizing, i hope u choke and die.
Marlenescrewed the world over @ 6:31 PM |
lists
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
im doing what i hate most
im gonna make a list
10 things ive thought abt in the last 5 mins:
1)josh
2)josh's list
3)calorie intake
4)hott danish boy i noe... hehehe
5)ron's wood
6)playhouse disney
7)"him" (gah i dont like thinking abt him)
8)josh's list (no this aint anything kinky its really a list)
9)toast
10)josh (i talk 2 him 2 much)
11 songs i like:
1)bloody valentine by gc
2)criminal by fiona apple
3)only hope - mandy moore (its 4 my girly moments)
4)son of a preacher man - janis joplin
5)leaving on a jet plane - john denver
6)Will you still love me tomorrow - plain white t's
7)helena - my chemical romance
8)hey there delilah - plain white t's
9)bleed like me - garbage
10) untitled - simple plan
11) wake me up when september ends - greenday
9 things people have said that stuck with me:
1) so i have you for the whole night then?
2) i love u.
3) i cant get u outta my head (it was more of the way he said it and the intense lk in his eyes)
4) im canadian
5) one day u'll wake up and realize u have nuthing 2 depend on but ur looks
6) i would have never done that to you
7) y are you doing this 2 urself? im worried abt u
8) just tell her that u miss her.
9) you are so fat.
8 things i say 2 myself everyday:
1)fat!!!
2)doh?!
3)god that was embarassing.
4)food is evil.. food is bad.
5)i wonder what hes thinking abt?
6)ooooo!!!
7)i wonder how many calories this burns?
8)stupid ho.
7 things i find very amusing:
1)sorhan (my danish boy)
2)josh
3)playhouse disney
4)dora the explorer
5)frau mayzerack's poofy hair
6)niki's obsessions
7)the size of my wrists
6 things i do when i wake up:
1)weigh myself
2)shower
3)figure out how 2 match my underwear
4)brush my teeth
5)hope to god my day doesnt suck
6)jump arnd in circles
5 people i depend on:
1)lubna
2)kirstin
3)hari
4)sofia
5)serena
4 things i say very often:
1)whatever floats ur boat
2)guten aloha/guten hello/guten bonjourno/olah
3)blob
4)gahhh
3 men i find irresistable:
1)JOHNNY DEPP
2)collin farrell
3)chad micheal murray
2 bad habits i have:
1)i never stop fidgetting
2)i never stop smiling especially when i feel awkward which makes me pretty damn fake
1 thing that means the most to me:
1)my lil secrets.
Marlenescrewed the world over @ 8:49 PM |
life is a nightmare
laughing doesnt really help
but it makes ppl believe.
believe what they want 2 believe.
im so normal.
hate that word.
its obscene 2 use the word normal or average
i hate the word whatever too.
dancing my ass off.
skipping down the drive.
glee.
i like u like i like the quiggles,
marly
dont question playhouse disney dammit!
Marlenescrewed the world over @ 8:22 PM |
obsesssion seeps in
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
checked my BMI today.
Underweight = <18.5
Normal weight = 18.5-24.9
Overweight = 25-29.9
Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater
my BMI is 18.3... im so close 2 being normal. i hate the word normal...ack!
instensity is an aprhodisiac.
his eyes r intense
his stares r intense
i dont like him very much
i dont like dora the explorer very much either.
winkle,tinkle, tinky right niki?
ive been jumping in circles
my heart is throbbing
my cheeks are flushed
im sweaty
and im empty
and i can hear my own pulse in my ears
and im shaking
i love this
im giddy again
i get so sad sometimes
and he makes me laugh
its so wrong tt im obsessed with so many ppl at once.
im better off everyday
when im standing in the pouring rain
i dont mind
Marlenescrewed the world over @ 4:28 PM |
